Why I’m Still Wetting My Pants At 22
By Autumn Morris
Every single vaginal issue that you could think of ... I’ve experienced. Vaginitis, vaginismus, bacterial vaginosis, yeast infections, CERVICAL EROSION (like seriously, it’s a thing, also known as “chronic wetness”, look it up). I went to a few different doctors and received the same treatment. Sometimes it worked, most times it didn’t. I knew I wasn’t crazy. I knew that my body was not made to suffer from infection after infection after infection as it had been for quite some time. I wasn’t sexually active. I wore cotton underwear. WHAT WAS I DOING WRONG AND WHY COULDN’T THEY FIX IT?? Aside from being tested regularly for STDs, I decided it was time to begin my own research. I knew my body.
At this point, I’d spent years paying attention to the fluctuation of discharge and the change in irritation and discomfort. I was not suffering from repeated infections for no reason. I began with the typical over the counter creams such as Miconazole several, several times with no prevail. It would work for a few days but the symptoms would always return. I did some research in hopes of a long-term solution. I found that pH balance was a theme amongst the success stories from women claiming very similar symptoms to mine. This insinuated that my vagina was not the problem, it was the way I treated it which was creating the array of discomfort I was experiencing.
Even if you have a perfectly healthy vagina, certain stimuli can throw off your vaginal pH: changing sexual partners, having sex with a partner without protection, menstruation, fragrant soap, tight clothing, bubble baths, and many, many other things. I found that many women use essential oils, which was intriguing to me as I already used essential oils on my face and body. I began with lavender oil (antibacterial, anti-fungal, anti-inflammatory, detoxifying), I would apply this directly to the labia minora and anywhere else that I was experiencing discomfort. I then began using a little bit of tea tree oil (also an anti-fungal, antibacterial, and anti-inflammatory). And occasionally I used coconut oil as a safe-to-use personal lubricant that maintained a healthy pH balance. While this addressed the external irritation, I still found myself stuck with unusual discharge and recurrent bacterial vaginosis, the only difference now being that it smelled of lavender with a hint of tea tree oil. I was so frustrated, why was I almost 22 and still coming home with soaking wet panties every single day?? Not cute and not good for my self-esteem either. There had to be something else I could try. As I perused the internet, I found solutions like douching with water, using yogurt covered tampons, and taking apple cider vinegar baths. The theory that appealed to me the most was boric acid. I repeatedly saw boric acid (or borax) show up in all corners of the internet and decided this was my best course of action. After a quick search on Google, I found boric acid vaginal suppositories and thanks to Amazon Prime, had them at my doorstep 2 days later.
Boric acid is not created to target one specific infection or another, interestingly enough, it is simply used to balance the vaginal pH. Which, as mentioned previously, is the root cause of most vaginal issues or disruptions aside from STDs.
There is no need to explain in excruciating detail my newly formed love with boric acid tablets. They work. In fact, they work wonders, whether I’m having another yeast infection, or a case of BV. As previously mentioned, I have suffered and probably will continue to suffer with pH imbalance in my vagina for a long time. It took me many years, many doctors’ visits, many pap smears, many STD screenings, many prescriptions, and many home remedies for me to finally accept that my vagina is just not the same as the next person’s.
And yes, I am 22, and I come home with wet panties sometimes. But, my unique experiences and complications enforce my need to truly understand my body, how it works, and what works for it. What needs should be addressed by a doctor, and what can be addressed with a simple boric acid suppository right before bed.
So if you can identify with me in that your vulva and vagina act like a constantly upset stomach, I completely understand. It’s frustrating, but it pushes us to give extra attention to a portion of our body that DESERVES extra attention. If you can’t relate to the severity of my situation, but still suffer from the occasional yeast infection or bacterial vaginosis, I encourage you to take the time to give extra attention to a portion of your body that DESERVES the extra attention.
I encourage you to do your research. I encourage you to experiment with essential oils, and maybe you’ll fall in love with them like I have. Maybe apple cider vinegar baths will work wonders for you, or maybe you’ll fall in love with boric acid suppositories. The takeaway here is, your genital health is important. Understanding how to treat your genitals and maintain a healthy environment within them is important, even if you feel nothing will make you feel confident and securely attached to your sex organs. Even if it’s frustrating and it seems impossible to just have parts that operate “normally”. Explore, accept, adapt, and most importantly, adore.